We Live

We Live Superchic[k]

There's a cross on the side of the road
Where a mother lost a son
How could she know that the morning he left
Would be their last time she'd trade with him for a little more time
So she could say she loved him one more time
And hold him tight
But with life we never know
When we're coming up to the end of the road
So what do we do then
With tragedy around the bend?
We live we love
We forgive and never give up
Cuz the days we are given are gifts from above
Today we remember to live and to love
We live we love
We forgive and never give up
Cuz the days we are given are gifts from above
Today we remember to live and to love
There is a man who waits for the tests
To see if the cancer has spread yet
And now he asks, "So why did I wait to live till it was time to die?"
If I could have the time back how I'd live
Life is such a gift
So how does the story end?
Well this is your story and it all depends
So don't let it become true
Get out and do what we are meant to do
We live we love
We forgive and never give up
Cuz the days we are given are gifts from above
Today we remember to live and to love
We live we love
We forgive and never give up
Cuz the days we are given are gifts from above
Today we remember to live and to love
Waking up to another dark morning
People are mourning
The weather in life outside is storming
But what would it take for the clouds to break
For us to realize each day is a gift somehow, someway
So get our heads up out of the darkness
And spark this new mindset and start to live life cuz it ain't gone yet
And tragedy is a reminder to take off the blinders
And wake up and live the life we're supposed to take up
Moving forward with all our heads up cuz life is worth living
We live we love
We forgive and never give up
Cuz the days we are given are gifts from above
Today we remember to live and to love
We live we love
We forgive and never give up
Cuz the days we are given are gifts from above
Today we remember to live and to love


How awesome would it be if, when i die, someone would be able to say that this song said what i was about. I want to be someone who lives simply to live and to love. I want to be someone who is able to forgive (even though it is soooo hard sometimes), and who doesnt give up, no matter how difficult life gets. Each day i want to remember that the day i am living is a gift from God, and i want to remember to make the most of it.
I dont know what is going to happen tomorrow. For all i know, i could be in a huge car crash, or could live until i am 119 years old; i really have no idea what my future holds. Although there are times when i think it would be so good to know what is coming in the future, i know that i wouldnt be able to live life fully, because the unknown aspect would be taken away. I mean, if i knew that tomorrow an angry parent was going to come into work and threaten a child, i would be able to try to keep that child out of the area more effectively because i would have had prior warning. But God doesnt want me to live like that. He wants me to trust Him, and to know that he will be with me in everything that happens. I dont need to know the future to feel safe, because the God who controls the future is with me 24/7! All that i need to do is to trust in Him, and to live and love.

Introducing....

I thought i would take this opportunity to introduce u to my beautiful niece Gemea. Isnt she gorgeous!! (and if u say anything otherwise, watch out!)
When this pic was taken she was a bit over 6 months old, and was refining the art of sitting up. She is now about 7 months old, and loving bein able to sit up and play. She is also really close to crawling.
Gemea is teethin pretty bad atm, but she still has a smile ready any time she sees her Aunty Katie.
She has started to reach out to people and things that she wants. When she got to church this morning, she reached out to me straight away and we decided to go for a walk and see what we could find.
I have decided that as she gets older, it shall be my job to ensure that she has enough exposure to veggietales, chocolate and loud toys, but seeing as i have already done all that, i may need to add a few more things to that list! hehe

Choice of Power

For a long time i have let people around me and situations that i have no control over effect how i felt pretty severely. Lately that has especially included my step mother.
But i realised last night that when i cut because of things that she has said and done, i am giving her power over me and my life that i really dont want her to have. As much as i am used to SI, and as much as it feels like it is my oldest, and sometimes my only friend, i would prefer to try to live without it than to let her have that sort of power over me. There is no way that i am going to live with her having that sort of power over me, know that i can recognise that it is there!
Because of this, i have decided (again) that i am not going to SI anymore. I did decide this before, but at that time i decided it for other people, but this time i am going to do it for myself. I know that it will be hard, but i am determined to stick with it. If i stumble (and i know i will), i will get back up and keep going again.

Let That Be Enough

Let That Be Enough Switchfoot

I wish I had what I needed
To be on my own
'Cause I feel so defeated
And I'm feeling alone
And it all seems so helpless
And I have no plans
I'm a plane in the sunset
With nowhere to land
And all I see
It could never make me happy
And all my sand castles
Spend their time collapsing
Let me know that You hear me
Let me know Your touch
Let me know that You love me
And let that be enough
It's my birthday tomorrow
No one here could know
I was born this Thursday
22 years ago
And I feel stuck
Watching history repeating
Yeah, who am I?
Just a kid who knows he's needy
Let me know that You hear me
Let me know Your touch
Let me know that You love me
And let that be enough

As i was driving to work this morning i was listening to this song, and i realised that it said exactly what i was feeling at the time. (except for the bit about turning 22 tomorrow!)
I so want to be out on my own, but i feel like i cant. I mean, i know i will get there eventually, its just that the road there is harder than i would have liked. Wouldnt it be great if all i had to do to get from one place in my life to another was to sing "Follow the Yellow Brick Road" a few times??
But i know that that isnt going to happen, coz this other stuff is happening for a reason. I dont know what that reason is atm, but i might figure it out one day. Until then i just need to know that God hears me when i pray, to be able to feel his presence around me, to know without a doubt that he loves me, and for that to be enough to get me through the hard days.

Woohoo!! I have finally got a blog! Now i just gotta organise my thoughts (yeah right!!) or at least get them partially organised enough to get them onto here in some sort of recognisable order :)
I dunno how often i will be postin on here, but i suppose i will just see how it goes.
Thats all for now. (how do i finish this thing?? i am lost. hehehe)