*sigh*
I found out a couple of days ago that apparently my dad has had 2 vasectomies (not that most of u wanna know this, but i gotta get it out), but one of them was just after Amy was born. Anyhow, amy told me all of this, but the way she was tellin me was as though she wasnt happy that i ended up bein born.
For the last few days i have been tryin to ignore it, pretend that she didnt mean it like that, or something, but i just cant. It's like the only reason she likes me bein around is so she can bludge money and help off me.
I just feel like i have been a hassle since i was born. I mean, if i wasnt wanted then, maybe thats y all this crap has happened.
I wish this would all just go away
*cries*
posted by Katie @ Sunday, October 16, 2005
4 Comments:
Princess!!
(((huggles)))
You know, my mom never wanted a 3rd child. It was only coz dad persisted that i ended up being born.
when i found out i felt soo unwanted.. but i got over it.
So maybe they never wanted a 3rd child for some reason. but you are here..
what this does prove is GOD WANTS YOU!! even though human tried to stop himself having another child God still came out with you!!
I'm sorry Amy's comment made you feel down. :(
((huggles))
You know the bad stuff didn't happen coz U wernet wanted.
U just wernet planned by your parents.
But God had planned you, and that is what matters.
Psalm 136:13-16
For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
Jeremiah 1:5
"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations."
( You may not be a prophet at all nations, but you were in Gods plan before you were concieved.)
Sometimes we are given a raw deal in life.
But end up with amazing testimonies.
You are gong to be one of those people with a amazing testimony.
((((((((((((((HUGZ)))))))))))))
Katsie!! Your family would be so incomplete without you!! And who on earth would I have to be crazy...I mean, normal ;) with??
I know it's tough news to hear, but at the same time....be encouraged, Katie Lou: God planned your physical AND your spiritual birth!!
"Yet to all who received him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God— children born not of natural descent, nor of human decision or a husband's will, but born of God." John 1:12-13
And YOU WILL OVERCOME EVERYTHING, keep believing!!!
"for everyone born of God overcomes the world. This is the victory that has overcome the world, even our faith." 1 John 5:4
Whether Amy appreciates you properly or not....remember that you're actually serving God by helping and loving her, and all the other people you care for and serve.....God notices, and he smiles his head off because yuo make him proud when you choose to serve even when people don't appreciate it, it's what Jesus did too!
I love you!! *hugs, tickles, burps, starts a pillow fight and is miserably defeated by Katie's superior weaponry*
God doesn't make mistakes your birth was no accident. God has great plans for your life even though you might not see it now (only He has the widescreen telly that can see the full picture we get stuck with the bit in the middle).
Besides, even though i didn't know it (or you) back then i wanted you to be born, otherwise i would have never met you and I would be a lesser person for it.
I know you just want it to all go away, it won't happen overnight but it will happen (sorry for sounding like a pantene ad). One day you will wake up and the pain won't hurt so bad, then one day you will wake up and it will barely hurt at all and then one day you will wake up and it won't hurt at all and you will be a stronger person for going through all this.
I love you katie - be strong!
*hugs katie while she cries*
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