Limbo

As of Monday 10th of October, i dont have any more work at the centre that i am at atm, and I feel like my life is in limbo coz i dont feel like there is any point looking for permanent work, coz i have no idea when i will be able to go to Mercy, but i dont want to just be sitting around at home. I have started to update my resume, so i can give it out to the childcare centres in parkes, and hopefully get some work, at least enough so i can have a bit of money to do stuff. I just want it all to work itself out, without me having to worry so much bout it.
i have been saying to people that i am not worried bout the work at FLL finishing up, but i am. i HATE not knowing what is going to happen.
I want to be able to get full-time work, and move out, but because i am going into Mercy, thats not an option for me at this point in time. Why cant it be easier?
I am also a bit hesitant about putting my name down at one of the places here in town, coz a friend of mine has been doing some casual work there lately, and i dont want to take any work away from her. I dont know if that is presumptious for me to say that they would hire me instead of her, but she isnt qualified, and i dont think she has had any experience in childcare before the casual work she is doing now. Maybe i should just start off by putting my name down at the other places in town, and see if i can get any work, and how much.
i know that i am just going to have to get over it, and keep doing what i am doing (as in looking for casual work and stuff), but i just want it to work itself out, preferably today.